Aug 23 2007
One down, 187 to go
Well, today was my first day back to work. Zoe starts daycare tomorrow—today she went to my mom’s for the day. When I dropped her off, Mom was still in bed (and Zoe was asleep). My stepfather took her and her accoutrements and saw I was teary. He said he’d give me a hug but he knew it wouldn’t help and would probably make it worse. I did manage to get through the day without actual crying, but the tears sure did well up a few times! This is the first I’ve left her with anyone other than John. I missed her.I was going to call when it was time for her first feeding because Mom was asleep when I arrived, but one of my co-workers who is a good friend of my mom’s told me I wasn’t allowed to call because my mom deserved to be trusted with her grandchildren. 
I didn’t call then, but when our first meeting of the day was over at 11:15, I did call, but mostly because I needed her to look up a phone number for me. Zoe was fine of course. (And Rita was right, my mom didn’t need me making her feel like I don’t trust her because I certainly do!)They brought her to me at the end of the day and when I asked if she was all right (she was really fussy two nights ago and most of yesterday—I think she may be teething already!) they informed me “she was a perfect angel.” I’ll try to be better tomorrow when she officially starts daycare!School will be over soon enough and I’ll get to spend my evenings loving her up!
